{Work at Home Mommy- Crash and Burn}

A couple months ago I started getting sick. February 3rd to be exact. I know, because remember this post that I did for a fellow blog, on Finding Balance?  Well that’s why I was sitting in my yoga pants writing, I was miserably sick. Ironic, I know. And I never go to the doctor, but my husband was away training and I knew I couldn’t afford to be sick. So for days I went back and forth to the doctor with prescriptions for antibiotics, decongestants, etc… The meds would work for a few days and then my symptoms would come back even worse. I was beyond tired, beyond miserable, and honesty, a little frightened. With every visit my symptoms were worsening, for a bug that everyone around me seemed to just be shaking off.

This went on for five weeks until I finally hit my breaking point. Just a few days after my hubby returned I wound up back at the hospital, being checked {again} for strep, the flu, pneumonia, meningitis, mono…the list goes on. There were Xrays and blood work, and something about a spot on my lung and I was seriously wondering what was going on, and so was my doctor. After all I’m a healthy, active, energetic thirty year old. Why on earth was my body being so difficult?

But the truth is, I had felt it coming for weeks. I didn’t know, of course, it would end up with me being sick for a month and a half. But I could feel my body telling me, Stop. Slow down. Sleep.

But I didn’t listen. I couldn’t listen. I mean, really, how could I? I have a two year old and a four year old and a husband who works 18 hours a day, and a business to run and a house to keep and a PCS {military move} to plan….Stop? Slow Down? Sleep???

Finally, with antibiotic #3, a steroid inhaler, tesslon, and a good bit of pain meds, and some of that mysterious rest I have been hearing about, I’ve started to feel like myself again. 

But fatigue nearly got the best of me. 

And you want to know the real kicker? If I had just taken a little down time when I needed it, I would have saved myself a lot of headache, because in the end, I lost almost six weeks worth of working time. 
Read that again: six weeks gone all because I wouldn’t listen to my body.

I tell you this because I know I’m not the only one burning the midnight oil more than a few nights a week. I know I’m not the only one taking on more than she can handle, trying to do it all, and be it all, all the time. When you’re a WAHM, you wear a LOT of hats. And when you’re business is still small and fragile like mine, it becomes like another child to care for- demanding, unpredictable, and totally dependent on you. You find yourself stuck between I need help and I can’t afford full time help. So you end up doing it all, on a perpetual treadmill of not enough sleep, not enough exercise, and too much coffee.

I will admit, I have been much more aware of what my body is saying these past few weeks. I’ve gotten to bed earlier, and actually felt like getting up earlier.  I’ve actually seen my husband most mornings before he heads out the door at the crack of dawn, which always starts my day {and his} better.  I’ve started a Pilate’s/yoga regiment, I’ve gotten myself into eating breakfast by prepping smoothies ahead of time, and I’m making myself be more disciplined in taking my vitamins and drinking my water bottle 3 times a day.   But I know I have to be more careful. The business is exploding, and for that I am terribly grateful, but I’m very cognisant of the work that lies ahead and I’m determined not to let it get the best of me this time. 

So tell me, all you fabulous Mama’s our there- have you ever crashed and burned?
What’s your secret to staying healthy and energetic day to day?

I would LOVE your tips, leave them below 
and I will be featuring some of you in an upcoming post!

For now, I’m off to work, work, work so later this week 
we can enjoy some much deserved play, play, play {and rest!} on Spring Break!

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